Rooted Wednesdays Vol. 10 This felt like going backwards… but it wasn’t

Whats On My Hair + Whats On My Heart

took the braids out this week.
instantly felt lighter.

that pile of hair that was once neatly braided into my own, now sitting in the trash
a physical reminder of how much we end up carrying just to present a certain way.

but even with that release…
I still feel like I’m carrying something that’s not mine.

I also went to a hair consultation. I haven’t seen a hairstylist in years. and honestly, they don’t always have the best reputation online.
it can feel like finding a good one is rare…
and that alone kept me away.

but I stopped making appointments intentionally,
to learn my hair for myself.
to care for it with my own hands.

and I’m grateful I did.

but now, I feel a pull back.
not out of lack…
but for support.

sitting in the salon, waiting for that call to the chair
felt like a risk… but also a quiet reward.

the soft music.
the familiar smells.
the homeyness of it all.
this is exactly where I need to be.

the decision I made years ago was right.
and the decision I’m making today is right too.

at first, thinking this is contradictory,
when really I’m just meeting a familiar moment
with a new version of me.

just because something was right for you then
doesn’t mean it’s right for you forever.

life repeats… but it never duplicates.

without awareness, it can feel like the same day over and over.
but it’s not.

today has never happened before.
and it will never happen again.

so the choice gets to be new too.

I’m grateful we’re allowed to change our minds.
I’m grateful options return to us.

not to confuse us but to meet us where we are now.

how are you meeting yourself where you are right now?
what do you actually need in this season?
and can you trust that if it changes,
you’ll be able to meet yourself there too?

and maybe growth isn’t becoming someone new…

maybe it’s returning
and choosing with more honesty each time.